Ramblings 2/6

Brianna Lewis

Mar 125 min read

I'm not quite sure what to write rn.

I have a lot of thoughts I want to write about, but when it comes time to write them, I don't really know what to write. I have...

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 101 min read

I know I don't have much to say rn...

...but I do know where I want to focus. I want to stop stressing about finances and success. I know I can succeed. As long as I am doing...

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 52 min read

Probably not going to do a real blog for a bit.

I want to make a real blog in the 20th - 23rd range (you'll see why), so you can look forward to that, but largely, I'm too busy/tired to...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 30, 20233 min read

Every step I take...

...I just have all these doubts about what I am doing. But, I want to do the best I can. I want to respect the space of those hurt,...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 29, 202311 min read

Some random ramblings;

A blog touching on my past mistakes, on my suicidal thoughts, and my desire to heal others and myself.

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 26, 20232 min read

Good/Bad News!

The good news is, I figured out why every time I am Lifeguarding, I get sad. It has to do with no distractions. It’s the same reason I...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 26, 20232 min read

The new year approaches...

...and I am honestly not ready. There’s so much to do. We've got various legal things to do. We need to get my fiancé set up on local...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 24, 20232 min read

Okay, sitrep of today;

I'm still not posting to my mirror or properly tagging these blogs and am not putting much work into writing them. Today, I've been...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 23, 20231 min read

A semisecret blog

Sorry, I just... ...have been in a low spot. I've been depressed. I've been feeling lonely. I've been feeling like I've wasted my time...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 23, 20232 min read

A maybe less secret blog

Well, if I can find the time tomorrow to start publishing these blogs, at least. I more or less got told, "think positively, to manifest...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 20, 20232 min read

Okay, so it kinda works!

Mobile blogs are garbo, but still are viable. So let me use this one to comment on the last. I am doing better today. I promise. I know,...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 18, 20231 min read

I...don't really have thoughts.

Today has scrambled my brain. Last night neither myself or my fiance could sleep; we both got bad insomnia which messed us up. I couldn't...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 17, 20233 min read

I don't have much time to blog today, but...

...When I can, I want to squeeze an entry in, no matter how humble it may be. Timing-wise, that probably means I won't be hitting hard on...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 16, 20233 min read

Today's my four-month anniversary with my fiance.

Let's celebrate by giving a brief timeline. My fiance and I have known each other in passing for about three years, but we really began...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 15, 20231 min read

I only know how to make mistakes.

I don't know how to apologize for them. I don't know how to live with them. I don't know how to make things better. To mend, to heal. In...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 12, 20233 min read

Well on the bright side...

...I've gotten back into the groove of blogging with the time-tested true tradition on this blog: Writer's block! Or lack of time. Or...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 10, 20236 min read

The pain is getting to me tonight.

I know, I know. I've no right to talk about my pain. My pain means nothing. I'm not the one who has the right to be hurt right now. I'm...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 9, 20233 min read

I figured out something;

I know why months of preparation wasn't enough for the fear I face every day. Months ago, I messed up badly--in a very hurtful way,...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 8, 20237 min read

The path of empathy;

I feel like I should try my best to explain what I mean when I say I've set out on the path of empathy, because words are hard and most...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 8, 20237 min read

"I don't know what to think about Bree"

If that or anything similar is a thought you have, I'll let you in on a secret: We don't know what to think about ourselves, either. Are...

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