Anxiety

Brianna Lewis

Dec 104 min read

I still can't make a real blog apparently.

I'm too tired and exhausted again. I don't know why, honestly. I should be getting enough food, and I didn't do much, but I feel extra...

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Brianna Lewis

Jun 103 min read

Well, today's been productive!

To some extent, yeah, distractions from mental spiraling, but actually, by and large, the two were actually separated from each other! I...

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Brianna Lewis

Jun 94 min read

I have a problem...

I can't relax. I can't. I can't feel fully invested in anything I want to do. There's friends streaming, and I'm there, in chats,...

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Brianna Lewis

May 410 min read

I have a lot of thoughts...

...but often, I struggle to write them down. I'm not gonna lie, things are very difficult right now in my life. Financially, I went into...

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Brianna Lewis

Apr 155 min read

Perfection is the enemy of good.

I keep on wanting to make a perfect blog entry to return to blogging rather than just doing blogging with is plenty good on its own. A...

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 1614 min read

I'm very selfish.

Today is the seven-month anniversary of me dating my fiance. And yet, today, I am opening up the day by writing what, if I actually cover...

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 101 min read

I know I don't have much to say rn...

...but I do know where I want to focus. I want to stop stressing about finances and success. I know I can succeed. As long as I am doing...

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 52 min read

Probably not going to do a real blog for a bit.

I want to make a real blog in the 20th - 23rd range (you'll see why), so you can look forward to that, but largely, I'm too busy/tired to...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 30, 20233 min read

Every step I take...

...I just have all these doubts about what I am doing. But, I want to do the best I can. I want to respect the space of those hurt,...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 29, 202311 min read

Some random ramblings;

A blog touching on my past mistakes, on my suicidal thoughts, and my desire to heal others and myself.

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 28, 20231 min read

Oh, to be engaged to a witch...

No, I don’t mean "witch with a capital B". No, I don’t mean evil, decrepit, or a hag. No green skin, melting with water, or even...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 27, 20232 min read

So I wrote this yesterday...

...but I didn’t get a chance to post it here until now. Rather, I had the chance to. I just didn’t have the mindset to. Heck, I'm only...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 26, 20232 min read

Good/Bad News!

The good news is, I figured out why every time I am Lifeguarding, I get sad. It has to do with no distractions. It’s the same reason I...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 26, 20232 min read

The new year approaches...

...and I am honestly not ready. There’s so much to do. We've got various legal things to do. We need to get my fiancé set up on local...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 23, 20231 min read

A semisecret blog

Sorry, I just... ...have been in a low spot. I've been depressed. I've been feeling lonely. I've been feeling like I've wasted my time...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 23, 20232 min read

A maybe less secret blog

Well, if I can find the time tomorrow to start publishing these blogs, at least. I more or less got told, "think positively, to manifest...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 19, 20234 min read

Let’s try a mobile blog.

The non-app web browser for weebly is terrible, and there’s none for wix, but I still want to try and air this thought out. This may or...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 18, 20232 min read

Nevermind, I do have thoughts.

It'd probably have been better if I hadn't, considering the nature of the thoughts. I just feel so pathetic. I have only one reason to...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 15, 20232 min read

Every day I wake up...

...And I wake up thinking, "what kind of pain/hurt will I be inflicting on others who I would love to still call friends today?" The...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 15, 20231 min read

I only know how to make mistakes.

I don't know how to apologize for them. I don't know how to live with them. I don't know how to make things better. To mend, to heal. In...

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