Sorry, I just...
...have been in a low spot.
I've been depressed.
I've been feeling lonely.
I've been feeling like I've wasted my time and life during my only free time.
I've felt like a failure of a friend, and even a failure of a fiancé.
I'm doing nothing.
I'm not pulling my weight.
I'm not spending my time on anything I want to do.
Despite having the time to.
I know I could make the world such a better place if I were actually doing things.
But I'm not.
I know that I don’t need to do much.
Just show up and be myself.
But, I'm not even showing up and being myself.
I'm doing nothing but just, waste my potential.
I owe people better than what I have given them.
So, I just feel so...lonely, so isolated.
I have a world of people who love me.
But I can't love myself.
And right now, I feel like I'm even failing to display my love for others.
I love them.
I could never not.
But I am such a failure, they’re receiving none of the love from me they’re owed.
I'm sorry everyone for my shortcomings.
I just suck.
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