A blog talking more about what I lived through and motives for what I did/didn't do.

The sadness is strong. The despair is there. The grief is there. The regret is there. The dread is there. And the loss. I'm free of a lot...

That might seem like an unusual title for a blog if you know the full circumstances behind what happened today, but it will make sense. I...

I can't relax. I can't. I can't feel fully invested in anything I want to do. There's friends streaming, and I'm there, in chats,...

I was very productive in plurality stuff, story stuff, streaming, and in spirituality stuff. I do have to make sure my fiance is okay...

...on the actual day, today, what I was originally going to was Not The Vibe. All of today, I was reflecting, and for the last few days...

Today is the seven-month anniversary of me dating my fiance. And yet, today, I am opening up the day by writing what, if I actually cover...

I have a lot of thoughts I want to write about, but when it comes time to write them, I don't really know what to write. I have...

I want to make a real blog in the 20th - 23rd range (you'll see why), so you can look forward to that, but largely, I'm too busy/tired to...

And while they are difficult, they give a sense of things. To keep a long story short: This morning, I was in a friend's tarot stream. I...

A blog explaining why saving the life of my fiance was my top priority, but admit I made terrible mistakes in the process I deeply regret.

...I just have all these doubts about what I am doing. But, I want to do the best I can. I want to respect the space of those hurt,...

A blog touching on my past mistakes, on my suicidal thoughts, and my desire to heal others and myself.

...but I didn’t get a chance to post it here until now. Rather, I had the chance to. I just didn’t have the mindset to. Heck, I'm only...

The good news is, I figured out why every time I am Lifeguarding, I get sad. It has to do with no distractions. It’s the same reason I...

...and I am honestly not ready. There’s so much to do. We've got various legal things to do. We need to get my fiancé set up on local...

And it seems so far, sad as it may be, my wishes are indeed impossible. The gifts my family got me weren't bad. In fact, a lot of them...

I'm still not posting to my mirror or properly tagging these blogs and am not putting much work into writing them. Today, I've been...

Sorry, I just... ...have been in a low spot. I've been depressed. I've been feeling lonely. I've been feeling like I've wasted my time...

Well, if I can find the time tomorrow to start publishing these blogs, at least. I more or less got told, "think positively, to manifest...