I'm too tired and exhausted again. I don't know why, honestly. I should be getting enough food, and I didn't do much, but I feel extra...

There's a lot that I've wanted to blog about, but I've never found the time to talk about it. I think that the top topic that I want to...

...But I can't catch a break in life it seems. kels and I were on the upswing. I was being left busy, but not entirely burnt out. I was...

Namely, it's the decision to move on rather than to go public with the events of last year and the followthrough into this year. And...

I don't want to sleep atm. I don't feel like going deep in all in cuddling rn. (Burying my face in my wife.) I don't want to do anything...

A blog explaining my current depression, how it's better than my prior depression, and my positivity remaining high like never before.

The sadness is strong. The despair is there. The grief is there. The regret is there. The dread is there. And the loss. I'm free of a lot...

I can't relax. I can't. I can't feel fully invested in anything I want to do. There's friends streaming, and I'm there, in chats,...

The more productive I am, the more healthy I am mentally. The less productive I am, the worse I am mentally. And it is a spiral. Bad...

I'm not doing terribly, but I'm not doing great, either. I'm only doing okay. I broke my blog streak. I'm not making much progress in...

A blog about all the things going wrong, from being in debt with being unable to afford basic things and all the issues.

A blog about depression, where I show off my art and what I have done while describing why depression makes it feel not enough.

...but often, I struggle to write them down. I'm not gonna lie, things are very difficult right now in my life. Financially, I went into...

...but I do know where I want to focus. I want to stop stressing about finances and success. I know I can succeed. As long as I am doing...

A blog explaining why saving the life of my fiance was my top priority, but admit I made terrible mistakes in the process I deeply regret.

A blog touching on my past mistakes, on my suicidal thoughts, and my desire to heal others and myself.

...but I didn’t get a chance to post it here until now. Rather, I had the chance to. I just didn’t have the mindset to. Heck, I'm only...

The good news is, I figured out why every time I am Lifeguarding, I get sad. It has to do with no distractions. It’s the same reason I...

...and I am honestly not ready. There’s so much to do. We've got various legal things to do. We need to get my fiancé set up on local...

And it seems so far, sad as it may be, my wishes are indeed impossible. The gifts my family got me weren't bad. In fact, a lot of them...