Bipolar Disorder 2/3

Brianna Lewis

Dec 24, 20232 min read

Okay, sitrep of today;

I'm still not posting to my mirror or properly tagging these blogs and am not putting much work into writing them. Today, I've been...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 23, 20231 min read

A semisecret blog

Sorry, I just... ...have been in a low spot. I've been depressed. I've been feeling lonely. I've been feeling like I've wasted my time...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 20, 20232 min read

Okay, so it kinda works!

Mobile blogs are garbo, but still are viable. So let me use this one to comment on the last. I am doing better today. I promise. I know,...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 19, 20234 min read

Let’s try a mobile blog.

The non-app web browser for weebly is terrible, and there’s none for wix, but I still want to try and air this thought out. This may or...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 18, 20232 min read

Nevermind, I do have thoughts.

It'd probably have been better if I hadn't, considering the nature of the thoughts. I just feel so pathetic. I have only one reason to...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 15, 20232 min read

Every day I wake up...

...And I wake up thinking, "what kind of pain/hurt will I be inflicting on others who I would love to still call friends today?" The...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 15, 20231 min read

I only know how to make mistakes.

I don't know how to apologize for them. I don't know how to live with them. I don't know how to make things better. To mend, to heal. In...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 14, 20231 min read

I'm a terrible human being.

I suck. I don't deserve to exist. I will die lonely and alone. I only cause harm. I don't do any good. All I do is spread pain. I...

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 10, 20233 min read

There's a song on my mind a lot the last week or so.

And that's the Johnny Cash cover of "Hurt". Because surprise surprise, that's what I do to others, despite my intentions of the opposite....

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Brianna Lewis

Dec 8, 20237 min read

"I don't know what to think about Bree"

If that or anything similar is a thought you have, I'll let you in on a secret: We don't know what to think about ourselves, either. Are...

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Brianna Lewis

May 27, 20232 min read

Well, there's good news and there's bad.

The good news is, I'm feeling better than I have been. I think I'm recovering from the severe bipolar week. And I do mean literally...

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Brianna Lewis

May 22, 20231 min read

My life is a mess.

If not blogging in three weeks wasn't a tipoff, let me make it official. Physically, mentally, emotionally, I am in shambles right now....

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 16, 20231 min read

Suffice to say, things are not great.

Today marked my family doing family things during family night. And by that I mean being extreme transphobes. As a reminder; I am out as...

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Brianna Lewis

Mar 1, 20232 min read

(weebly ate this blog's title and I forget what it was)

Yesterday was rather productive, but I didn't have time to do literally everything I set out to do. I had to pick and choose near the end...

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Brianna Lewis

Feb 14, 20231 min read

Today was a bad day.

I have pain in my heart. I just do. Justification, whatever, doesn't matter. It's there. It hurts.

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Brianna Lewis

Feb 10, 20233 min read

I'm not well off.

I'm just...in pain. Bipolar Disorder has struck and both halves are in full swing--badly. In many ways, today was productive. I did...

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Brianna Lewis

Feb 9, 20231 min read

I'm just so tired.

I'm tired physically. I'm tired emotionally. I'm tired mentally. Just...exhausted.

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Brianna Lewis

Feb 8, 20234 min read

I want to take back control of my life.

I guess it starts with writing a blog for the first time in like two weeks. Remember when my blog was daily? I sure do! Multiple entries...

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Brianna Lewis

Nov 12, 20223 min read

Alright so the radio silence was my fault this time.

A post explaining lack of blogs.

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Brianna Lewis

Oct 26, 20221 min read

I hate how stupid I am sometimes.

A blog pertaining to stupid life decisions counteracting an earlier smart choice.

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