I'm a terrible human being.

I suck.

I don't deserve to exist.

I will die lonely and alone.

I only cause harm.

I don't do any good.

All I do is spread pain.

I just...I don't want to cause any issues. I don't want to be problematic. I don't want to do anything which gives people bad memories, sours things, makes things worse, ruins experiences, etc.

And yet I am.

I do.

So like.

When these are the people I love the most.

I deserve nothing good.

And deserve only bad.

I love my friends.

They are amazing and incredible and wonderful.

They do so many wondrous things.

I was close to them.

They were family.

And I deserve to be removed from that family.

So like.

Every attempt I make to do good, only causes harm.

Because I am horrible.

I want to do good.

I don't think I will ever succeed.

So I deserve misery and suffering and all the loneliness of my pathetic existence.

Because that's all I am.

I'm pathetic.

I'm so sorry.

I shouldn't even be trying.