Life continues to worsen.
- Brianna Lewis
- 8 hours ago
- 12 min read
Hi, I am writing this across every platform I can, in order to best reach out to everyone and give them the rundown of things.
If you don’t know me, my name is Bree, aka, the Range of Bree System, aka Ranger, aka mastina2, and in most places I go by rBree2.
My elevator pitch for myself; I’m an autistic plural(median system) transwoman lesbian witch with ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety, and numerous disabilities both physical and mental. I’m 32 years old as of July 23rd, and legally married to the love of my life as of November 15th 2024.
Although, tangent; we're still hoping to have a wedding ceremony (we effectively eloped) in October 2026, pushed back from the initial plan of October 2025. But I digress.
Over my life, I've accumulated a fair share of interests. Writing, games, music, songs, Dancing, Poetry, art, Webcomics, and more. (I blogged daily about these things for nearly 10 years continuously!)
I've pursued all of them as a potential career casually, but never been able to get my foot fully through the door on anything. Professionally, I've been a lifeguard and later Aquatic Lead (formerly called a Lead Lifeguard) my entire adult life, for nearly 11 years (minus one missed year due to covid).
In online spaces, I am mostly known for my supportive nature. I bring joy and positivity to the spaces I choose to inhabit. I give my time, energy, and support to friends, loved ones, and even relative strangers who I happen to share a space with.
In my mind, everyone I talk to is a potential future friend, because every friend I have ever had, I got from talking. I share memes, I make silly wordplay jokes, I just vibe with folks. I provide my presence and provide that source of constant engagement.
I talk about my passions, my interests, my life, and listen to them talk about theirs. I find their stories fascinating, and I am pretty good at remembering what they tell me, too!
Whenever people run into issues they want advice on, I give what I can. When people are down, I provide perspective. I help people see the best in them, when they can’t, and I provide ways for them to recover, rebuild, and keep going forward.
I give my life perspective to share that they are not alone, and I give them guidance. I am in many ways a teacher and a counselor/psychiatrist/healer. I give people a way of reframing their life, in a way which encourages healthier mindsets.
One of the main ways I share small reminders and tips is with my daily check-ins. I started them to encourage everyone to check in daily to let people know they're alive and okay, and chose to encourage engagement by providing small boosts to the day, little things which can shed perspective on all their negative self-talk and allow for fighting against their weaknesses and building on their strengths.
I want to share those with a wider audience than what I have, so I’m working to expand into other media. I eventually want to make a year-long calendar, and/or a year-long prompt journal. I've begun plans on making a series of 44 card oracle decks, too!
I've turned these daily check-ins into a webcomic, and occasionally into videos. I started a subreddit dedicated to providing them as well, and added a tag for it on the subreddit for my presence as a content creator.
Speaking of which, I am a content creator.
I create videos of all kinds. On TikTok I primarily post memeposts, wordplay which I think of.
On YouTube there’s a variety. I vlog, I talk about passion projects, I provide longer uplifting messages, I educate people on subjects I’m familiar with particularly plurality, I provide unedited longer form recordings of gameplay for games, and I perform the various songs I’ve composed.
I stream on twitch. (And upload streams as raw vods to YouTube.) I’m a variety streamer, although lately I’ve been playing almost exclusively Cozy Farm Game type games such as Stardew Valley and Disney Dreamlight Valley.
Besides Cozy Farm Games, I primarily play RPG games, one-off story games, and childhood nostalgia games.
I also stream both art and my novelwriting process.
My current novel, Records of Farn, has as its own Elevator Pitch, "The genres of High School Hijinks/Shenanigans, Shonen, Shojo, Light Novel Isekai, and Harem blended/mixed into one, to tell an Epic surrounding around the effects the isekai’d protagonist has on the fantasy world she finds herself in."
Farn is a paracosm, with as much history as earth. It’s as old as earth in billions of years, had a planet collision to form one moon in a similar timeframe, developed primitive proto-life in a similar timeframe, sapients began forming around the same time, modern sapients appeared around 200,000 years ago, and civilizations have risen and fallen in parallel times to earth. The main difference is farn is a place where magic and religion are real, so the history of the planet is interwoven with mythological figures who explicitly had a proven tangible impact on the world.
Since this means there’s billions alive in the modern day, with hundreds of countries, cultures, and countless pop culture, I will never be able to tell the entire story of the planet, because to tell it all would be as impossible as telling all of earth’s history.
However, Records is specifically focused around the introduction of one transplant from earth, Vee, and her arrival on farn, and how her arrival transforms the planet thanks to the influence and consequences of her actions on the world stage.
Vee was designed as a protagonist to represent under-represented demographics. Namely, she’s a polyamorous plural transwoman lesbian with ADHD, autism, bipolar disorder, and anxiety. I asked the question what it would take for a person with those specific traits to be the one of eight billion sent as most qualified to farn, with her and farn evolving side by side.
I initially planned for three books covering the majority of the world. Records would cover Vee’s first three years in farn. I would write a sequel set after, and then an interquel between the two, with the interquel covering a lot of the expanded lore, filling in the gaps neither Records or the sequel would.
But I ran into a problem; I realized Records would, in its entirety, be akin to the entirety of The Lord of the Rings in length. I was effectively writing an entire series of light novels, or the entirety of a lengthy Manga like Bleach, or the entirety of an anime with hundreds of episodes, in one single book.
My first solution was to break it up by year. Year One as Vee’s first year, Year Two as her second, and Post-Graduation as her first year out and about fully in the adult world.
...Yet I've run into the problem where just Year One alone is likely to be around 2,000 - 4,000 pages in length, and the other years are likely to be equally as long.
...So my current plan is to return to the roots. I took great inspiration from light novels, so why not just have each book of Records be one or two Arcs, a la a Manga Volume, or an anime Season?
That will likely leave the first book at a reasonable 400 - 600 pages.
And I am actually pretty close to getting it written! It’s about one tenth done for a first draft, and the hardest parts of setting the framework are almost completed, with snippets of the rest written and a pretty comprehensive timeline established.
I just need to put in the work to make it.
And I have a lot of plans for the expanded farn universe. I genuinely believe that Farn as a franchise is, if handled properly, worth a billion if not multiple billions of dollars. (Mind you, I have no interest in even being a millionaire yet alone a billionaire, but I think my world has that much value.)
I think if I could successfully pitch it to a service provider like Amazon or Netflix, Records of Farn would make an INCREDIBLY good anime. We're talking, Demon Slayer or Jujutsu Kaisen levels of animation and popularity. There’s enough characters with their quirks and backstories for endless amounts of investment in the world, and with a show to provide their official looks, that opens the door up to merch. Figures, shirts, you name it, anything which could be sold and distributed to people on a worldwide basis.
Especially since it wouldn’t end there!
Records has a planned sequel and the interquel still, both of which could be adapted to be their own, shorter, anime series!
And then There’s the expanded world lore.
I have in mind a Battlestar Galactica slash Lost type live action soap opera dramafest covering the distant past revolving around the continent of Seidonia, the farn equivalent to Atlantis, and how it led to the rise of Dabadon, the Demon God-Lord of Slothfulness. I have always thought that, given the opportunity, I could successfully pull off what all the pale imitators who tried to copy what those shows did, tried to do but failed. I feel I understand what made those shows work, and how I could artificially recreate what was accidentally made by circumstances of the time.
I also have in mind a musical, covering the downfall of the Federation of Ranmoan Children, aka the Ferachen Empire, and how Zeboel the Demon God-Lord of Envy was birthed from that late stage capitalism hellscape.
And then There’s a novel covering the rise of Rarma, the Demon God-Lord of Greed, and how she conquered Angea, putting an end to the era of colonialism in the old world.
And There’s more!
I also have in mind a book-slash-anime series called "Fallen Farn", a 'what-if' alternate universe covering one possible rendition of what farn would look like without Vee’s influence, one possible way things pan out without Vee accomplishing her full potential. In essence, it shows one possible world which diverges from the canonical farn at a point where Vee easily could have failed, and shows the consequences of that failure in an alternate future separate from the canonical sequel and interquel.
That’s four to five anime series, one musical, and one live action series, beyond all of the original books to be written, all with the potential merch to match!
And the sequel I intend to write has the theoretical potential for sequels after it to be written, too!
That, aside from how there’s at least one fictional MOBA video game which easily could be turned into an actually real one.
By my estimation, I have compiled 6,000 pages of notes for farn, and there’s plenty more unwritten I’ve stored exclusively in my head. A veritable Similarian of notes!
When I say this is a potentially billion dollar franchise if properly enabled, I well and truly believe it to have that level of worth. Farn is a rich, interesting world, truly equal to earth in scale, and that provides the ability for a truly endless amount of stories on every type of media.
And farn is just my current obsession as a paracosm.
I've made more, like the Rubyverse of my webcomic Red Hood Rider of equal scale to farn. (Heck, even The Descended is sizable.)
I've been writing stories since I was 13, and that has led to dozens, even hundreds, of rich worlds I can with relative ease write and bring to life, as I aim to with farn.
And I have more passions than just farn, too!
I also want to write and illustrate a children's book series, with an illustrated picture book containing captions which rhyme, telling subtle easily digestible morals to children through the eyes of the protagonist. Messages like "you might not like going to the doctor, but it helps you stay healthy", how to play safe, how to explore, etc.
I am a talented enough artist and wordsmith to pull it off, where I could potentially write a new book every month and release dozens in the series.
...But all of this, all of these ideas, all of the creativity, all of the passion, all of the support I give others, all of the love, kindness, education, resources, and so on and so forth I provide? All that joy and positivity, all that potential?
...Is in jeopardy, because I myself am in danger by the dire straights of my current life circumstances and the desperation thereof.
My work recently made policy changes which in effect removed accommodations for my disabilities. My work already strains me above 25 hours per week, and removing the parts of the routine which made it bearable is exhausting me to the point I genuinely might collapse at any given moment.
And on top of that, I have been given extra job responsibilities without any extra pay for the compensation of the increased workload. I’m doing more work, with less accommodations for my disabilities, and getting no increase in my pay or benefits from it.
Just my one job, now averaging closer to 36 hours a week, a full ten more than I can realistically handle with accommodations, while having those accommodations removed, and doing extra work for no extra pay? Is genuinely pushing my body and mind past breaking. I very well may perish thanks to my job if conditions don’t improve.
But it gets worse. Despite all of the above, my job doesn’t cover the cost of living. Me and my wife are both employed at soul-sucking jobs which are taxing us beyond our breaking points because we both have disabilities, but despite two jobs, we still aren’t making even close to enough to even survive.
Despite how our current jobs could already kill us, we're looking for second, even third, jobs, to get four to six sources of income, because that’s what we need at the moment.
Our apartment complex illegally upped our rent by $100 last year, without any notice. And when we renewed our lease, we went from having all utilities except power included for free, to being charged for every utility. Garbage, sewage, water, all previously free, but adding an additional couple hundred dollars.
Excluding power and internet, which together are an extra $300, our monthly rent went from $1700 to $2000, without any notice. Our first indication we would be charged for the utilities was the first monthly bill after we renewed our lease.
And this extra $300 in rent has slowly been building up to drowning us to a point where we can't keep it up, and last month finally was the breaking point.
In July, we received a $2,000 bill we had to pay. That was our rent money, and since we had to pay that bill, we had nothing left for rent.
So we have received an eviction notice. We have through August 7th to pay the rent, at least $2,000 but potentially $4,000, or we get evicted on August 12th.
We've been trying to pursue every aid resource. We've hit walls on food stamps in navigating the bureaucracy. We would qualify for legally disabled and get the benefits from it if we could actually afford to go to the doctor, but we can't.
My health insurance at the end of last year upped my monthly rate from $150/month to $550/month, a $400 increase I couldn’t pay. So I've been without health insurance all year long, and even if I had it, I wouldn’t be able to afford even the copays. We've been catch-22'd price gated out of qualifying for disabilities.
If we could afford to see doctors and receive their care, then it would be shown medical intervention isn’t enough to make us fully functional members of society, that we are in fact by the legal standard considered disabled. And that would open up the resources of disability to us. But because we can’t afford doctors, we can't get those resources, when those resources would likely enable us to afford doctors. We're trapped locked out of receiving the care we legally should qualify for.
Housing resources have largely given us no leads. We've pushed cheaper housing and programs to largely no effect.
We've tapped just about every resource left, and have nothing left.
And all of this builds on top of each other. My job exhausting me, trying to navigate the bureaucracy of receiving aid exhausting me, my own body exhausting me, hunting for cheaper housing, everything is adding up to breaking me, and if I do break...There’s no fixing me after.
All of the ideas, all of the creativity, all of the joy, all of the positivity, all of what I do, all the good I could ever do, all of the passion, all of that is on the verge of disappearing. Forever. Of being gone, permanently lost to the world.
So this is a final call for aid.
And to give a tangible answer to what you can do to help, there’s actually quite a lot!
You can send items or food directly to us. Either through throne (which has surprise gifts enabled), or through me DMing you our address.
You can spread the word. Share this, in post form, in video form, however you can, anywhere and everywhere.
Advocate on my behalf to any agency you think will listen.
Legal agencies which might take up me as a client for the illegal things I’ve been enduring.
An agent and/or manager who you think might believe in me and my vision such that they're willing to take a chance on me and believe that I can actually create what I believe I can.
Aid programs you think could work with me.
Jobs which you find that could work with us and our disabilities, ideally remote work which pays a significant amount.
Fundraising organizations or individuals, who might be interested in campaigning for us.
Or even just directly plugging how to support us.
You can support me through twitch subs and bits, albeit at a low payout to me.
You can donate to my kofi,
Or even commission something from me if you want a tangible return on your investment in me.
You can donate to our GoFundMe.
And you can spread the word to others.
You can follow, subscribe, and watch my content. (Ads on twitch when I stream, potential monetization on TikTok + YouTube.)
Here's a list of my links, my carrd.
Spread my content, spread the word of my need. Spread the word of the things I've gone through, of what I am hoping to do, of what I already am doing. Tell people about me, in any way shape or form you can.
I’m running out of time.
I have so much to offer the world.
I just need some help surviving in it.
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