...But I wanted to at least try to lay out some thoughts.
Right now, the past doesn't matter. I just want to normalize this message going forward as I feel it important.
Nothing anyone has done to me, and nothing I have done to other people, would ever stop me from helping them if they need it.
I've always had nothing but love for everyone. That love is unconditional, giving full support.
To put this into context.
I had a lot of thoughts about the upcoming events.
December 3rd will be one year since my wife proposed to me.
December 4th will be one year since we have had a place together.
And December 5th through 6th will be one year since I lost most of my friends, to what I suspect was the malice of the two accomplices to the problematic streamer who nearly drove my wife to kill themself. And that loss led me to nearly kill myself. And for the last year, we've been trading off on the consequences of that misinformation campaign, where we've been suicidal and nearly lost our lives numerous times.
But all of that...all of that...means nothing.
Going forward, the past means nothing.
The problematic streamer and the people who I believe were willing knowing accomplices? Despite their problematic nature, I have always thought they're not complete monsters. They aren't going to be celebrating what's going on. They're going to be afraid, and need support, and love, and so much more, going forward...just like me.
I don't care what I believe them to have done. If they need help, and if I have any ability to help them...I will. Because love isn't conditional. Love isn't revoked off of what was done in the past. Love is something that I cannot help but give to everyone, no matter their past, no matter how flawed they are. While I wanted the truth to come forward, and I wanted them to face accountability and responsibility, I never wanted them to undergo, say, being canceled. Being banned. Being ostracized. None of them deserve that. Very, very few people do.
Like a lot of the people about to celebrate having increased power, mind you, who actually do deserve bans, ostracization, cancelation, etc. But most people don't deserve that fate.
I don't care what people did to me.
Nor do I care what I have done to them.
I genuinely think that, going forward, the past doesn't matter.
What matters is the present and the future, which...we need to prepare and plan for.
We need to network. We need to stay safe. To protect. To educate, to learn, to understand, to spread knowledge. To show kindness, caring, compassion, empathy, and love.
Playing the blame game won't do good. Blame leads to resentment and hatred, the very things we're trying to triumph over.
We can't be apathetic.
We have to fight.
We have to stay strong, plan effectively, protect ourselves and loved ones.
We have to hold onto the hope that love, empathy, kindness, compassion, care, understanding, knowledge, and support are stronger than hatred and oppression.
As long as we fight for those things, we will never lose to the apathy, greed, and hatred of the world.
Silence/inaction is how hatred and oppression fueled by apathy and greed wins. Staying as safe as you can, networking, checking in on loved ones, supporting each other, and building communities of love, kindness, and understanding? Is how they lose, and empathy, connection, and love wins.
We can't stay silent. As long as it's relatively safe to speak up, we have to. Speak not with anger, retaliation, outage, etc., but with calmness, compassion, patience, and love. It's okay to feel grim, but let your voice be heard, and show who you are.
A lot of people are afraid right now, and with good reason. But going forward, we're going to need a lot of bravery. A lot of courage, to take action despite the fear, to risk putting ourselves at increased risk in order to protect people, to speak out rather than stay silent. Stay strong, everyone.
To blame is human. To recognize blame leads to resentment, hatred, and harm, and that those are not what is needed, is to show understanding and love. Blame can begin a lot of division. Finding what to do next is how we start bringing people together again.
Basically.
We have to remain positive. We have to uplift each other. Support each other. Be strong together. Give what we can. We won't be able to rely on the government going forward. We have to survive, together.
My thoughts are scattered, but I will try to be a point of reassurance and strength going forward.
I will not be safe, but as far as people go, I have a lot more safety than most--I feel like I am obligated to use that to help all of my loved ones.
The vocal minority being emboldened to be hateful is going to be harmful, but I need to do my best to not let that hate dominate.
We have limits to what we can do...but we have to do everything we can to do.
Stay safe.
Much love.
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